Real life

You know when things just seem too grown up for you. Even though you are a married adult, with 5 children and grown, life just seems too grown up. Like it is surely something that is not happening to you, because you are not grown up enough to have stuff like this happening in your life. Anyone?
Rich's mom died Thursday afternoon. Although we knew she was not doing well, it was still not expected. This horrible sense of sadness just draped itself over our home. I was not really sure how to feel/react to it all. Rich had told me that he planned on flying out to Arizona for a day or so to deal with those icky things that need dealing withduring icky times. It turns out that there was a lot more dealing with than he originally thought. He left for the airport at 10pm last night (Friday) and will not be returning until sometime Wednesday. UGH!
I mentioned to him that he was not taking into consideration how co-dependent I am on him. He laughed and I cried. It is impossible for me to comfortably say good bye to him.Sometimes he gives me a lot more credit for strength I am pretty sure I don't have. I HATE being away from my husband. My heart is sad. My love is too far away. This is too grown up for me.
Please pray for our family during this rough time. I know God can use this to do huge things in Rich's life and mine. He is a wonderful son and an even better husband and dad. Watching him handle life so confidently brings such peace to me. I feel so safe with him beside me.